Rough week


Yesterday my dad was being run over a car. Car's windshield was smashed and my dad was lying on asphalt. My dad phone me from ambulance. Needless to say my hearth skipped a beat. I heard from his voice that he was ok, but still I was horrified. My dad could have died. He's ankle is broken, bicycle is destroyed, Levi's jeans cut in half and winter jacket's sleeve ruptured off. But he's still here.

This accident made me think about life. How short it is. How everybody around us won't live forever. Anything can happen. We should appreciate life, people around us and things we already have. Usually we are complaining and desiring about things we don't have, when we could stop and start to think more positively. Of course everyone knows these things, but during weekdays it slides away from our minds. We start wallow in melancholy and negative thoughts. We forgot we are surrounded by amazing people and we already have filled our homes with nice stuff. We should appreciate life more often.


Also almost a week ago my phone took a bath, which basically means I have been living without my smartphone. Luckily this accident included in my insurance contract and I have already sent my phone to repair. Hopefully this week I will receive similar iPhone, which is refurbished. I have been using my mom's old Nokia phone, which is not smartphone, but people have been able to reach me with phone calls and text messages. I have been isolated from social media. Suddenly Facebook, funny 9gag pictures, Snapchat, Instagram, News, Games and all other apps are not anymore available. Break from social media is a good thing and I have realized how much I usually stare my phone, when I could do something more reasonable.

There are still few bad things, which I have noticed when I don't have smartphone. I'm not able to check weather quickly so I usually run outside to notice I'm wearing too much or too less. I'm also unable to check my emails so often as usually, because I can't sit next to laptop all the time. Checking little details from Google is also unable. For example in grocery store you are unable to check from recipe that did you needed those eggs or not. Whatsapp. No more pictures and easy contact to my family and friends. So yeah, I have been feeling little down about losing my smartphone. I have been feeling more down, because again I lost most of my pictures and files (because I hadn't remembered to save them, stupid) and of course this accident added 100 € extra cost to me. I have already done few extra work shifts, so that I'm able to pay the bill.

Because my week was obviously not rough enough, my jeans ripped from the crotch yesterday. Those jeans are my favorite jeans and actually only jeans I have right now. I was able to fix them, but I'm afraid they will rip soon again. Phone and jeans are luckily only material, which are not irreplaceable.

Gudetama Night Lamp from Ebay.

Human no 563


Autioilla käytävillä nihkeä luuttu 
hiertää lattioita puhtaimmiksi.
Hiljaisuudesta kantautuu
väriseviä avun huutoja.

Ihminen, 
kasvoilla syviä epätasaisia
kanjoneita elämästä.
Tärisevät kädet kannattelevat
ruumista pystyssä. 
Vaippa vyötetty lantiolle.
Katse harhailee.
Sielu haluaa jo karata.

Sanat ovat vaihtaneet paikkaa jo vuosia sitten.
Kaikki ovat lähteneet sääskien valtakuntaan.
Hän on yksin mielensä kanssa.
Vaellan hänen pienessä neliössään,
etsien mielen keksimiä tavaroita turhaan.
Vaippaa ei lopulta vaihdeta.
Mutta tossuja vaihdetaan kolmesti.

The Rejuvenation Chamber


As a valentine's day gift I bought my boyfriend a gift card to the rejuvenation chamber. I also had to buy this experience to myself as well, because I have wanted to try this for a while. The rejuvenation chamber is floating therapy. Float pod is filled with extremely salty water, which allows you to float. When you float, your body and brain get a relief from different stimulus for example: sounds, light, and pressure, it releases substances which detract stress and pain. So basically float pod is shortcut to deep relaxation. While floating your brain has the possibility to focus on relieving and speeding up the natural healing of the body.

Ostin poikaystävälleni ystävänpäivälahjaksi ajan rentoutuskelluntaan. Ostin myös itselleni saman kokemuksen, koska olen jo jonkin aikaa halunnut kokeilla kelluntaa. Kuten arvata voikin rentoustuskellunta on kellunta terapiaa. Kellunta tankit on täytetty todella suolaisella vedellä, joka mahdollistaa kehon kellumisen. Kelluessa keho ja aivot saavat levon ärsykkeiltä, kuten esimerkiksi ääniltä, valolta ja paineelta, jolloin kehossa vapautuu aineita jotka vähentävät stressiä ja kipua. Syvärentoutuneessa tilassa aivoilla on mahdollisuus keskittyä helpottamaan ja nopeuttamaan kehon itsehoitoa. 


Benefits of floating: relaxation, pain relief and sleep better naturally. Floating makes body produce natural endorphins, which soothe the pain and give you a very pleasant feeling. Also along the deep relaxation the levels of stress-related hormones like ACTH and cortisol decrease significantly.

Kellunnan hyödyt: rentoutuminen, kivun lievittäminen ja unettomuuden hoito. Kellunta mahdollistaa kehon tuottamaan luonnollisia endorfiineja, jotka lievittävät kipua ja antavat miellyttävän tunteen. Syvärentoutuksessa myös stressiin liittyvät hormonit kuten ACTH ja kortisoli kohoavat huomattavasti.


First ten minutes there were comforting music coming from the pod. I selected "Earth music", which made me feel happy and safe. After ten minutes I was floating in silence and I also turned lights off (pod was also closed). It felt like I was in space, even I don't know how it would feel. Little by little I started to relax. I was floating in silence for 30 minutes and after that I heard same music I selected. Music continued for five minutes and it was like wake up call to me. After few minutes I turned lights back on and opened the pod. I floated about 45 minutes. It felt really comforting and relaxing. I had a lot negative thoughts in my mind, which didn't allow me to relax completely, but maybe next time I will relax more.

Ensimmäisen kymmenen minuutin aikana tankista kuului rentouttavaa musiikkia. Valitsin itselleni maanläheisen musiikin, mikä sai oloni turvalliseksi ja iloisemmaksi. Kymmenen minuutin jälkeen kelluin täydessä hiljaisuudessa. Suljin tankin kannen ja sammutin valot. Aluksi täysi hiljaisuus ja säkkipimeys tuntui ahdistavalta. Tuntui että lilluin avaruudessa, vaikka miulla ei olekaan minkään näköistä hajua siitä miltä siellä tuntuisi oikeasti lillua. Pikku hiljaa pystyin kuitenkin rentoutumaan, enkä enää jännittänyt myöskään niskaani. Puolen tunnin jälkeen sama melodia toimi "herätysoittona" todellisuuteen viiden minuutin ajan, jolloin räpläsin pimeässä valot päälle ja sitten tankin auki. Kokonaisuudessaan kelluin noin 45 minuuttia. Kellunta oli todella miellyttävää ja rentouttavaa. Tuntuu kuitenkin, etten päässyt aivan täydelliseen rentoutuneeseen tilaan kaikkien negatiivisten ajatusten ja huolien vuoksi, mutta ehkä seuraavalla kerralla kykenen rentoutumaan paremmin.


We went to place Kellumo, which is the first Deep Relaxation Center in Finland. Customer service was really good and they provided us towels, earplugs and all the other things we needed. They also have two float pods, which allowed us to foat at the same time. Highly recommending this place. All the float pod information is also from their website. Their website (click).

Kävimme Kellumossa kellumassa, joka on Suomen ensimmäinen syvärentoutuskeskus. Asiakaspalvelu oli erinomaista ja Kellumo myös tarjosi kelluntaan tarvittavat pyyhkeet, korvatulpat ja muut tarvikkeet. Kellumolla oli myös kaksi kellunta tankkia mikä mahdollisti sen, että pääsimme poikaystävän kanssa yhtäaikaa kellumaan. Suosittelen mielelläni käymään Kellumossa ja kaikki kellunta informaatiokin on otettu heidän sivuiltaan. Heidän nettisivut (click).

PS. This is not sponsored post. / Tämä postaus ei ole sponsoroitu.

Nyx Graduate Palette


I got this beautiful and big Nyx Beauty School Dropout Graduate Palette from mom as a valentine's day gift. In Finland valentine's day is called "ystävänpäivä" which is translated to "Friend's day". So in Finland valentine's day is not only for lovers, but also for friendships. Over the years me and my mom have used to buy little valentine's day gifts to each other. It's nice little tradition. She also bought me chocolate and dad bought me roses as a surprise. I love my parents. <3


Graduate palette is huge! There is 35 eyeshadows, 3 blushers, 2 illuminators and 2 contouring powders. I have only used this palette two times, but I can already say that there is beautiful variation of eyeshadows, which are very pigmented. Illuminators are also surprisingly good and it's nice that there is three different blushers shades. I also love the packaging. There is a mirror (big plus) and all the colors are bundled together in one perfect, convenient bundle. Palette is also perfect size and it's easily to grab to your bag in a hurry. 


I need to go soon, so I won't miss my train. I'm going to Helsinki to see my boyfriend. We weren't able to spent valentine's day together this year as usual. I still bought him valentine's day gift, which I'm going to give him later. I also bought that experience to myself too, so I will tell you more about it later. But now I need to rush! 

Hazy Days


It took ages to get this blog post here. I had problems with Tinypic, which I normally use to upload my pictures to blog. For some reason they lost my pictures or all of them were corrupted. How nice. Finally I uploaded my pictures directly to blog and it's working. Thank god.

There were few hazy days last week and then days turned slowly sunnier and warmer here in East Finland. So praise yourself spring is coming! I love all the seasons, so I don't mind enjoying still winter landscapes until spring comes. I have to say, I always feel a little bit more energetic during sunnier days. I have been also happier few days, because I got information that my bachelor degree's treatise is accepted and reviewed. That means I only need to pass two last mandatory courses and I will have my bachelor degree. I already got information that I passed international criminal law course, which was one of the mandatory courses and that means I only have one course left! Eep! I also passed the course with full points 5/5 even I thought I had failed the test. So I'm over the moon right now. It feels that my studies have gone really well recently even I have had a lot of stress and stuff to work with. 


Anyway here's a little outfit I wanted to show you. Unfortunately Finnish weather doesn't allow me to wear this yet, but I had to take pictures with this pink bomber jacket already. Beginning of 2017 I promised myself that I won't buy so much clothes as usual. I try to make better choices. I try to buy only clothes that I will use over 30 times, which fits to my wardrobe and which I will hopefully love years. And here is the first piece of clothing I found to my wardrobe. Pink bomber from sale at Zara. This beauty was last piece left at the store and price was only 12,95e. Insane. I had to get it and I'm really excited about pink, light blue and yellow shades this summer.

On my lips I used Essence lipliner (Shade: 06 Satin Mauve) and Anastasia Beverly Hills liquid lipstick (Shade: Pure Hollywood). I put lipliner all over my lips, which makes the color last longer (ages). I ate and drank, but my lipstick didn't come off. Perfect. After Essence I put little Anastasia Beverly Hills liquid lipstick on my lips and then I was done. I really love the color which I get from these buddies. Anastasia Beverly Hills and Essence are both brands, which doesn't test on animals. So they are the good guys!


I also bought myself new Gudetama iPhone case. After I dropped my phone in bathroom and scratched it, I realized I should buy phone case, which would fit for everyday use. I found this one from Ebay and yes, I think it's perfect for everyday use.

But now I should go to sleep. I have early wake up tomorrow, because I'm going to hairdresser to cut my hair just a bit. I have tried to grow my hair a long time, but I want to cut it to fresher shape for summer. Let's say I want to try something new. Little change. I'm pretty sure my boyfriend won't even notice difference. Haha. Goodnight!